haha need to send in baby pics for yearbook. haha got too lazy to scan the pics in so i decided to just webcam it to show people so they could help me choose..
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hahaha i look like such a confused baby. LOVE it
most people like the second one cuz of my messed up hair. so nice. why do i have the same expression on my face all the time. haha with my tongue stuck out. i like it. lol

like this song..

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's f*kd up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
green day - boulevard of broken dreams

i'll take my tea double double please :)
i like it when i go to timmys and i ask them "double double for my tea" and they give me my tea black with no sugar and no cream. mmmm caffine for tonight. so much fun. actually i expect to sleep before 1 oclock tonite. i think i should endorse my "lets sleep before 11" rule again soontime.


omg. i FAILED my chemistry mechanisms test. well not failed but you know asian failed.
FREAKING 70s -__-
like MC i got a few wrong but the bulk was when i did them all the mechanisms right but... a half mark there, a quarter mark there and BAM there goes your mark. now i need to get 90+ on every test so i can drop this hopefully. *crosses fingers*


daymn feel bad for having to cut friends from talent show.. also.. feel bad that i didnt go out on saturday with ____ cuz he kinda went out of his way to make sure i could go to the movie with him and i cancelled on him 30 minutes before. :S
haha went to buy a book from chapters and ended up buying another shirt from club monaco should be so warm. its wool,rabbit hair,and cashmere :D

YAY english journal time

i got bored. and started taking pictures. which led to making a collage. meh


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green is really "in" this season. and i STILL need to get sth tweed. i like that pinkish white tweed design now. i'm also starting to like gold. just bits of it here and there for acessories. lol

anywayys. i think i'll go do my english work now

WHOA. andy got fired!
why does jen always slip through.
but the bottle was HIDEOUS. like dammit andy

this msn beta thing is preetty cool. its kinda freaky with the winks tho. maybe i'll try talking to somebody that has it too so i can figure out what these things are for.
*shrug. lol. went to mock trial and talent show meetings today. whoa. bah. stupid younger kids -_- they told US to move our WHOLE meeting upstairs so they could practice upstairs AND they gave us no respect. plus we're the ones organizing talent show soo ya...CUT?.. we'll see.

i like how the teacher for mock trial knows who i am wen i've only talked to her like twice. yay cuz i have her for law next semester. she was like "juanita are you going to be speaking for crown 2?" and i was like err. my group hasnt decided yet. she thinks that i'm the 'leader' of the group.. but im really not since i go late for the meetings since i have other things to do.

oh and i like it when people talk shiet AFTER i've planned out your WHOLE ROUTINE (step by step) for you. if its anyone who doesnt deserve to be the heads its YOU since youre useless and you needed ME to help you do everything. AND it was US that ran your meeting for you.

note to self: KILL ROACH! -_-
some freaky kid wants to go to prom with me. err NO. so now freaky kid has pictures of me CUZ OF ROACH.. *shudder. and he knows who i am. tho i've never talked to him.. and i never see him. BAH.

time for chemistryy!

test your basic french skills.

aujourd'hui était la première neige de cette année. lorsque je suis entrée dans la salle de français j'ai dit que "il neige madame". j'aime l'hiver parce que la neige me rend très heureux parce qu'elle est jolie.

je pense que je serai malade :(
je veux faire des biscuits et des brownies ce week-end.
j'espère vraiment que les étudiants gradués partiront en voyage du québec.... ce serait amusement à partir en voyage avec chacun avant université.
eee..le week-end que nous avons choisi est pendant le bonhomme carnaval de québec..

*yawns. so tired.
reading this book in english and its really disturbing. esp when they talk about the commander and the handmaids having sex the handmaid's tale - margret atwood. i dont really like her books. but *shrug. i heard fifth business - robertson davies is much better. maybe ill read that in my leisure time. lol
ps. i hate bloom's taxonomy.


finally done with business. now should i ask samji if she needs a TA 3rd period? cuz i feel like i'm wasting time when i'm having lunch for 2 hours. feel so unproductive.

i went to vaughn mills on the weekend. its not as good as i expected. and it WAS a nascar go-cart thing. stupid adrian and gene were like "no are u stupid nascar go-cart thing". shut it if you dont know anything.

omg. and i went to cell group on friday. maddy can walk now! my goodness.
secondly i need to get my prom-dress made soontime.. because i get to wear it to my cousins wedding too. seems so weird that shes getting married..

yay time to go do my chemistry and then read+analyze the fun french poem

chemistry lab writeup plus quiz tomorrow. more concerned about the lab. since i think shes gonna mark hard. soo need to do research. glad i've done like half of it already :)


so i guess its down to either oc or apprentice tonite. probably apprenticing it since oc is on in half an hour.
chinese music is driving me crazy now. so sick of it *barf, listened to about 12 cds.
msa trip. is so hard to plan. need to call blue cross insurance tomorrow, confirm prices for msa. and finish good copies of things by this weekend. BUT sam's not gonna be here this weekend ..ya. so i'll be doing practially all of it..damn.

i love christmas music. it makes me happy :)
"santa can you hear me i have been so good this year, all i want is one thing, tell me my true love is here, hes all i want ...."
yay
oh. our guys rugby team is hilarious. watching them play. i want to go to their monday practice to scream at them and tell them they're doing things wrong. and make them do hand drills forever and ever and ever until they're tired. and when the drop the ball. fun times with the pushups :)

WOW. candy and i are turning SO asian-i-fied because of we're head of the chinese portion of the multicultural show.. because we have to find all this chinese music and pick which ones we like... haha first day of asking people and we have 21 people already wanting to be in our portion. well people came up to us and asked us if they could be part of it too! now i have 'groupies / backstage crew', hair stylists, makeup-artists, and music specialists *2 <--in consideration. we want to choose the music ourselves.. they just narrow it for us.. are we goood or what. lets hope all these people are comitted :)



eww kevin STOP saying "oh snap" i'm going to oh snap your head off if you say it again.
LUV IT :)
i like chinese music. it makes me happy. thanks gene for sending me a few songs. hopefully people will bring their CDS for me tomorrow so i get to sample :)

quick thought before i go out
just got back home and i'm with tans and nerd on this...
how we all hate people who want to be reconized as a leader BUT dont do anything.
all talk and no action takes you nowhere..
secondly you have to step up and delegate.. so dont be crying when you arent part of the executive council

sugar and spice and everything nice?
sugar is good at times. but sometimes less sugar, and more spice please.


dont like it it when people try to suck up to you.. and when people try too hard. easy there.. nobodys gonna start dislike you if you're real to them, theres not need to candy-coat everything 50x, once or twice is enough. i see where youre coming from but still...too much drama in school..
shopping this weekend for sure. but tomorrow hafta do stuff with tans and viv.
i guess i'm not going to fellowship again this week. maybe i'll go next week and whenever worship nite is. not sure about next week since kevins coming back OR i might have plans. oh crap. somebody told me i was supposed to chill with them tomorrow (friday) i dont remember who tho.. but i have my granddaddys bday and mel's bday on saturday. which reminds me i need to buy her gift. ewww stress pimples are not cool

why do i have to be stupid and want to achieve perfect in everything
WHY AM I RETARDED.
(i think talking to people with 93% averages in my class might be why. opposed to my like. 88 average. which is why i feel dumb.. french is bringing me down. need to bring it up to a minimum of 90. bring up chem to 93 -->supposidly i'm supposed to do it for jayson. -_- )
i'm staying up so late (1am) because i want perfect on this test. argh.
and STRESSING since my brain is mixed with the chemistry prelab (which i want perfect again, surprise, surprise)
wow this post is retarded. i'm like bashing myself. i like it.
MUST be the king lear. lear became mental. lol. i'll keep making fun of myself
lear needs to die. hes my adversary and i disdain him.
i want to vex him with an evil spell that is perpetual.
haha i'm sucha malicious biatch.
i'm trying to use my vocab words but its not really working.
i think my knowledge for this test is superfluous and i am becoming very lamentable..
today has been piteous has it not, my hands are black from the printer ink
what luck.

took my graduation pictures today.. the photographer was funny. bah. theyre so picky about the angle of your face when they take the pictures. haha it probably came out retarded but..grad pictures come out funny.
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need to redo the proposal cuz appararantly the superintedent is a stickler and wants everything precise or she'll say no to our proposal :S
bah, i like how im doing most of the stuff. need to call MSA again
..
getting 91 in chemistry.. "okay la" considering i only got 88 on my aspirin lab report.
and 89 in english. dont know how. i thought i was getting higher.
dammit. i wanted a 90 in english
french. BAh who knows what i'm getting. the teachers HARD tho. so probably not good. maybe i'll say i need to get into university and she should give me a higher mark. well i dont need the mark right. need to apply for uni soon online.
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chemistry test tomorrow on organic rxns. and flame test pre-lab on thursday. lab report wednesday. eee i'm excited. pretty colored flames. ooOoo methanol makes a blue flame. okay time to study. i need to get 100 on this test.
on another note

i strongly dislike conceited little sh*ts that thinks everyone likes them (just cuz people are friends with you you doesnt mean we WANT you and we're in love with you). as well as the ones that dont do anything and expect you do to things for them. get off you lazy arshes and do something.

really like the 7 for all mankind jeans. i like the crystal pocket stretch bootcut. looks so hot on that model.. its pretty with the swarovski crystals on the pocket.
..
yesterday.. lunch was missions. sam and i decide to go out for lunch but wasted like 15 minutes trynna find alam... nal + viv + rou came also. bought nal her hairdye (she lost her wallet, found it), bought lunch, and came back all in a total of 30 minutes (because i arrived a bit late to class) but STILL.
multi meeting was good.. we can do our proposal.. need to mix the music.. its gonna be sikk. should i buy a SAA sweatshirt. afterall, i am on exec council of it right.
sushi dinner.. we were stuffed. too bad viv failed and arrived when we were leaving. SO glad we didnt go to the party going down last nite. were too exhausted..even to make an appearance.. i love coolers they taste like yummy tasting juice. :)
dyed my hair. its dark now. do i like it? iuno yet i'm not used to it. post up pictures up later. chemistry assignment. need to go to the library or sth.
sister went to vaughn mills. i still need to go there. grad photos TUESDAY.

OC tonite.
APPRENTICE tonite.
MY FOB SOAP FINALE tonite.
what a kerfluffle i'm in. lol
..
note to self: stop being a slut with candy and wear more clothes to school so candy and i dont freeze our butts off walking in the RAIN to her car (but it was formal day)

volleyball intramural, multi meeting, fashion show, dying party, sushi dinner, HOMEWORK TIME, then chillin' time (drinks? dessert? ) TOMORROW.
-writing up rough proposal tonite for mount st anne. and find insurance company
-need to get stuff for sponsers + foundations? check up on birthday-o-gram people.. and give them money...
*thinking, wow the people goin on the trip are gonna hafta sign a hellotta waiver forms. board forms, school forms, resort forms.
AND the place where our prom is at is SO pretty
*note to self, tell nikki NOT to go to distrikt because i'm not going clubbing tomorrow after all


all these people. who used to be so cute,innocent, smart are sniffing crap up their noses now? wuts with that
then we have the people MY age at church and its so stupid like when _______ brought in a metal stick or whatever.. people thought he was so cool. like grow up. are you like 12? youre not gonna do anything so why are you brining that to church? for show? thats quite pathetic.

kinda nervous for gettin' back the mechanism test. scared that i might have gotten alot of 1/2 or 1/4 marks off and them accumulating. and causing my mark to go *splat.
mock trial today.. sounds like so much fun. we're gettin real lawyers to help us on the case..and on the presentation date (april) we get to dress up and stuff ^_^
maybe i'll get brownie points for joining. since ms azriel is my law teacher next sem. ehhh?
french test tomorrow... just need to review a little more.
thursday or friday - english presentations
multi head meeting - friday as well as volleyball intramural.
streaking or dying party saturday

kevin: are you going to afterlife or distrikt friday?
hehe i find it cute and funny when guys say they're going shopping together. haha
like what does the other guy do? "yo dude, you ass doesnt look good in those jeans?"
haha i understand if guys are shopping with girls hehe.